This is what I read on Donna' Quiet Life:
Kim at Upward Call has written an excellent piece on bitterness.... Just yesterday the chapter I was reading in Called to be his Help Meet mentioned the effects of a bitter heart. It really does start small and grow like a nasty weed. Before you know it the weeds have taken over the garden.
Guard your hearts, young ones...
The weeds are much easier to pick when they are small and few.
We're to be tenderhearted, forgiving, and kind. The only way to prevent bitterness is to let go of whatever is causing the bitterness. It means we must accept what God has for us, and trust Him. It means that we must forgive those who have hurt us.
This is the comment I left to Kim:
I was going from one blog to another, thinking I was wasting time that I should be spending on building the businesses I am trying to get off the ground, but it seems God was leading me because each blog became more and more meaningful.
I was reading some things earlier today about this topic. Adversity that doesn't seem to end and how to cope. The article I was reading pointed out how we must endure and not be like the people mentioned in Job who "cursed God and died."
I have been feeling soo bitter. So angry with God. You said it so well in this post of yours. I know how to forgive others. I learned about forgiving my husband long ago as a young wife. I had soo many inflated expectations. Of course my husband didn't meet them. I went through bitterness toward him and through God's grace learned to forgive him and others. Nobody's perfect. We have to give it to God, and look at the mote in our own eye. I am not perfect at this, but I have truly grown in this area, and have much peace.
I know I still need to learn to forgive myself. But right now I need to learn how to repent and forgive God. I am having soo much difficulty acceping what God has for us. We are struggling so badly and I just can't keep from wondering "HOW LONG CAN THIS GO ON?" I know God could open the windows of heaven and change our lives. But He doesn't. He is withholding and I just don't know how long I can hold on. Temptation is at my heels. It frightens me that I could actually be mad at God.
I know I need to be more thankful, but I am so scared for our future. We need to get financially stable, and time is not on our side. How long can my husband work so hard? We have no retirement, no medical insurance, no home of our own. I guess what makes me mad is I thought that by having all of these kids I was doing God's will. Why then won't He provide us with a home of our own? It is frightening being vulnerable to homelessness. It is overwhelming not being able to meet all of our needs all of the time. It is depressing living among chaos and instability.
enough said. Do you have any suggestions for how to forgive God? How to trust that we will get through? I need to find peace, need to have peace and happiness with what we have, but how? A labotomy? Don't think so.
P.S Have you overcome bitterness? What are your suggestions for me?